I must apologize for my lack of updates lately. Unfortunately I have had some trying times in my family AND I have also been very busy with many creative opportunities. But I return with some entries from my recent physical healing sessions.
Everything went fairly well tonight. Index finger goes in fairly easily a number of times. I did kegel exercises before attempting penetration. If everything goes well next time I may try doing the kegel exercises while my finger is still inside.
Tonight I tightened and loosened my kegel muscle while my finger was inside. It was really cool to feel the muscle in a completely new way. While I could feel it very large with inner strength, it wasn’t nearly as powerful as I thought it would feel. I could feel how strong it was, but it was not intimidating. Pretty fascinating. The more I do things, the more I learn.
It still feels as though I could be more relaxed. but I’m sure that will come with time.
Definitely uncomfortable when the vagina entrance is dry. Inserting my finger was painful and tight, as though my vagina were rejecting my finger. So for tonight I decided to stop with the finger penetration after one try. Instead I did a few more kegel exercises.
The entrance hurt a bit tonight. Didn’t do much. Feeling a bit discouraged.
I was picturing the muscles to be like a vice grip, but they aren’t. Granted I still only have one finger inside.
Tonight I did the usual kegel tightening exercises then eased into putting one finger inside my vagina. The first time I left my finger inside and relaxed the muscles. The second time I did the kegel exercises with my finger inside. Since that went well and things were still moist I decided to try and insert two fingers. This was not possible for more than about one inch. As I left them at the entrance for a little while I began to consider whether my dilator might serve as a better option, since it might be smaller increments up in size. When I compared, the smallest dilator was only slightly larger than my index finger, and definitely much smaller than two fingers together. I’ve decided therefor that this will be the next step. It deviates slightly from my original plan, but I think it makes more sense.
The dilators have been in storage for awhile so I made sure to wash them so that I can use them next time. Much to look forward to!
Everything went fairly well tonight. Index finger goes in fairly easily a number of times. I did kegel exercises before attempting penetration. If everything goes well next time I may try doing the kegel exercises while my finger is still inside.
Tonight I tightened and loosened my kegel muscle while my finger was inside. It was really cool to feel the muscle in a completely new way. While I could feel it very large with inner strength, it wasn’t nearly as powerful as I thought it would feel. I could feel how strong it was, but it was not intimidating. Pretty fascinating. The more I do things, the more I learn.
It still feels as though I could be more relaxed. but I’m sure that will come with time.
Definitely uncomfortable when the vagina entrance is dry. Inserting my finger was painful and tight, as though my vagina were rejecting my finger. So for tonight I decided to stop with the finger penetration after one try. Instead I did a few more kegel exercises.
The entrance hurt a bit tonight. Didn’t do much. Feeling a bit discouraged.
I was picturing the muscles to be like a vice grip, but they aren’t. Granted I still only have one finger inside.
Tonight I did the usual kegel tightening exercises then eased into putting one finger inside my vagina. The first time I left my finger inside and relaxed the muscles. The second time I did the kegel exercises with my finger inside. Since that went well and things were still moist I decided to try and insert two fingers. This was not possible for more than about one inch. As I left them at the entrance for a little while I began to consider whether my dilator might serve as a better option, since it might be smaller increments up in size. When I compared, the smallest dilator was only slightly larger than my index finger, and definitely much smaller than two fingers together. I’ve decided therefor that this will be the next step. It deviates slightly from my original plan, but I think it makes more sense.
The dilators have been in storage for awhile so I made sure to wash them so that I can use them next time. Much to look forward to!